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This is one of those nights that I wish I had someone to talk to but I’m too afraid to ever open my heart up to anyone again.

People say that it's not wise to burn the entire forest down because of one tree, but it only takes a single spark to light a fire big enough to burn down an entire forest.

Please remind me who I really am.

Bugis with Laury Cat last night. I should control my spending habits, I've been spending so much lately, it's really terrible.

Had dinner at the airport with Aunty Rina and her friend after that before sending her off to Turkey. Yeh that's pretty how much how the day went by haha.

I woke up to a migraine today so that's really terrible. I have no idea why things like that happen, especially when I'm sleeping properly - meaning, at an appropriate time.

I hope the plans I have for this week materialize. Could use all the time doing things that make me happy haha. Proper bored right now, but I have no appetite to eat anything or the energy to go swimming (or leave the house for that matter).

Anyway, my army enlistment has been cancelled. Don't ask, I'll just take it as a blessing in disguise 'til further notice.

OKAY BYE HAHA.

I've been going with the flow, wherever that goes.

I should really be sleeping. It's like 4:56am right now. Really tired, but I can't get to sleep for some reason.  I get really frustrated with the pillow and bolster and can't find a comfortable position to sleep in. It gets tiresome after awhile.

Anyway, I've been feeling a little down these few days. Not really sure why but it doesn't really matter anyway because that doesn't really bring me down all the way, just bugs me a little but I'm fine.

Celebrated Abel's 22nd birthday today. I actually wanted to find a really retarded photograph of the two of us for this post, but there's just too many of them, I can't decide which one's best. So I'll just leave you guys with the most recent photograph of us taken today haha.

Glad we're still close after so many years :)

Also, earlier I said I was looking for old photographs of us.. So while scrolling through the posts, I found this really hilarious conversation between the both of us. I think I still remember that night, I was over at his house and we stayed up the whole night playing Pokemon HAHA.

Anyway, here's the conversation:

Both Of Us: *Trades Pokemon*
Me: *Views Pokemon Info*
Me: Eh, who is Dot (Referring to Pokemon Trainer name)?
Abel: Me lah, that's my name.
Me: Wah lao you act cute sia! HAHAHA.

HAHAHA, I also included this in the post after posting up the conversation - HAHAHA, then you know the whole conversation after that lah. "Naturally cute lah" and all those other stuff that we would say HAHAHA.

HAHA, I think it really seemed like something that we would talk about hahahaha.

I've actually completely forgotten about this conversation so I thank God for blogs. I actually do enjoy reading through my archives. A lot of happy and sad times, but mostly happy so I'm glad. I'm also really happy to know how much I've been through and where I am today. I think it's really God's grace and blessing that I am where I am :)

OKAY BYE HAHA.

I'll become a cheerful butterfly that rides on the glittering wind.

Been watching Digimon Adventure for the past few days until the ungodly hours of the morning. Well, if you must know, I tried fixing my body clock today by going to bed at like maybe 8pm or so but I woke up at 11:45pm or something so obviously the plan didn't work.

Well, all the more better for me so I can finish watching the series. I think what makes me enjoy shows such as Digimon and Pokemon are the underlying values that the show instills. in us as children. I know it's kind of hard for anyone who doesn't watch the show to relate to whatever I just said but I know it does.

Personally, if you ask me, I think both shows are great. But as much as I love Pokemon, I think Digimon has a better storyline and lesser cliche endings to each episode.

I think as a kid, I've always wanted to share some kind of bond with a Pokemon or Digimon friend. Haha,  I know it sounds really stupid but growing up, I guess the closest friends that I had as a kid were probably these 'monsters' and their partners that I watch on television.

I guess you can also say that Digimon ruined me because it gave me unrealistic expectations of what a friend should be or should do. That's probably why I'm really sensitive to things pertaining to friendship and everything else that ties in with it. But I guess it can also serve as a blessing in disguise because I've always tried to be a good friend to everyone I know - this is what the show taught me.

Sometimes, things might not turn out the way that it should be after I've tried everything, but I know that my intentions were always good and nothing was ever supposed to hurt anyone.

Ah, I know that some of you reading this must be thinking, 'what the heck is he going on about?' and probably think I'm really retarded for saying all of this. But if you feel the same way as I do then you'll totally understand.

This is why shows like Pokemon and Digimon would always have and will be a part of my life as well as having a special place in my heart. Because it helped mould me into who I am today and taught me about a lot of important things in life right now that the shows on television nowadays don't.

Haha alright, end of this very random post.

Back to Digimon Adventures! :)

Paper heart.

Going to try avoid Facebook for the next few days. Not going to lie, but it kind of bothers me that everyone is posting up their graduation photographs. Not that it is anyone's fault, I don't really have anyone else to blame but myself, right?

Anyway, I have so many things on my mind now, I don't even know which one to tackle first. Nothing really emotional or what though, just really stupid things like NS stuff and all. If you must know, I received a letter of deferment because the school.. Yeh, I know, if you don't, just go figure :/

I can't be bothered going into detail here. After all, this is the first stop that the handful of busybodies go to when they want to find out more about my very unfortunate life. Right?

It's best to forget unnecessary things.

Ah never mind, it'll turn out fine, just not today.

Slowly, sinking, wasting.

Currently blogging this from Laury's place. We're not professionals so don't judge haha, we were just bored.

Right now, she's fast asleep while I'm on her Macbook. I should probably go off in awhile and maybe eat something when I'm home. Gosh, I'm perpetually hungry all the time, it's unreal.

Simpang for dinner and a few french fries plus a takoyaki ball for supper. I wish I could choose a place where all the fats would go to. Don't we all?

OKAY BYE.

Tomorrow's a brand new day.

My days of freedom are numbered so I'm trying to make the most out of everything. Okay, who am I kidding? I'm obviously not sticking to that plan considering the fact that I've been home most of the time this week. Which is a good thing I guess, since I'm saving up money!

Went for dinner with the usual Sunday group of us and then watched 'What To Expect When You're Expecting' for the second time because Dwayne asked me to. Let's just say, it was a reasonable and good offer.

While purchasing the tickets, we couldn't resist the nearby stalls selling accessories and so we gave in to temptation!

Look at her, she's like a crazy girl HAHAHAHA.

And after all that madness, we proceeded to Coffee Bean and started laughing some more. I don't know if  it's because of the food we had for dinner but we were like crazy high, laughing and making the stupidest jokes out of the smallest things like 'Oolong' HAHA.

OKAY ABRUPT ENDING HERE, BYE.